the bellus puera

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2004-07-19T19:26:00.000+08:00

BOOO!!! I've started using livejournal http://www.livejournal.com/~belluspuera! I think it rocks! So, I don't think I'll be updating much here, I may enter the same entries here but without pictures! I know blogger has all these new features that are similar to those in livejournal but hahahaha! I'm determined to move there so.... BUT NO WORRIES! I'm not going to totally dump this site. I love it a lot! I'll try to come back as much as I can? Cuz my tagboard (which one one touches apparently =() and wishlist and all are still here. Today's update check out at my livejournal link okay? and to those who use livejournal, add me!!! =))))))) toodlez!

flagday

2004-07-17T19:21:00.000+08:00

OMG! Blogger is so cool now. =)))) HAPPY HAPPY! But there're way too many colours now, starting to make me feel confused. HMPH! Anyhoo! Flag day was alright, it's nice helping out these kind of community service again. I discovered a lot of things too. Some people may not look nice from the outside but they're actually so nice and soft inside. SO, DON'T ever judge someone by the look =).
It was super tiring though, my legs were practically breaking walking around the same area, smiling to people who gave the 'rotten' face, asking whether they would like to donate. OH WELL! Some of them were really nice and generous.
I was thinking whether I should change to LIVEJOURNAL or stay at blogspot. I like LJ because they got all those comment thingie and icon blah blah. It's so nice. But, I hope you all won't kill me after if i switch to LJ. MAYBE, I'll keep this one and post exactly the same entries. I don't know. I don't have that much time to decide. But I'll either change my layout or the whole account by end of this month.
After flag-selling, I went to town with everybody, they wanted to watch 'MEAN GIRLS' and I wasn't interested so I excused myself and went to library with Andrea. Oh my sweet mei! I haven't talked to her so much and I think I need to update more about her. =) *huggiez* We got to heeren after that to get her hairbands. I got a pair of earrings. I can't stand the way I'm spending money. These small little things can let me buy one expensive good. I don't know what but *sigh*. I wasn't really in the mood today, my cramp and soreness was just killing me.
Anyway, after sending Andrea off at the bus-stop, I got to the library and read magazines. It was freezing cold I tell you. So, when I really couldn't take it anymore I left but Shaun, Zhenghan and Leslie (I think) came in, so I decided to join them and studied. It was pretty fruitful, I revised a few chapters of Physics. In fact, almost everything.
YINGYI: thank you sooooooooooooooo much for the present =D I was so touched! I really didn't expect it so I was really really glad. I'll take care of your lovely keychain I promise *muackz*
Just before I left, got to DFS and check out the cosmetics. I need to buy new lip gloss, my old one is finishing. I seriously don't know which colour suits me and getting into that place in a tee shirt and shorts just didn't help at all. I don't know why but it seems like whenever I go out in casual clothings all the sales girls will annoyingly ignore me or serve me reluctantly. It's so irritating! Well I know I'm having PMS but it just made everything worse. Do I HAVE to dress up to get them to help me out? They're supposed to attend to ANY kind of customers they meet. Anyway, am considering M.A.C or SYL, the colours aren't that bad after trying on MYSELF without anyone giving a damn at the counters. HMM.. I don't exactly think I can get mascara? I'm not sure whether I should get lengthening, curling or water-proof. Well, I thought I don't really need mascara so I don't think I'm gettin any soon. A lip gloss will do. Dior's lipsticks and lip gloss packaging are really nice. I want to buy for the casing! Haha! Okay, that's retarded! Whoah they're damn expensive! I saw the one packet comes in 5 sticks. 90 buckz? It's definitely cheaper if you divide by 5 but buying 5 at the same time will just kill me. BUT OH! THE PACKAGING IS SO NICE? *laughs* AIYEEERR.. Never really like cosmetics in the first place. I hate having to remove them when I'm home. So, that's why I'm going to stick to lip-gloss-only for probably many years more. Eye shadow and mascara may come soon but the rest will be a long way to go. =)
Ah, my body is really tired now. I'll just figure out some LJ stuff and will lie down on the bed. So, I'll try to update asap. =) toodlez!

LUNCH WITH AUNTY CHEW ENG =)))

2004-07-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

heeeeee!!! I don't have much time to blog so I'll make it really short okay? School was alright today, we watched some lame chinese cartoon on this love story I forgot the title though, pai seh. It's so corny but pretty sweet nevertheless. But, *sigh* I'm sooo not interested in romantic stuff now. Lol. I can't wait for the next double period of chinese to watch the other part of the show. I'm looking forward to Friday =). Oh then there was physics today, and Mr. Tan was challenging my group on this question from TYS that he twisted here and there. It was pretty difficult we totally flunked out first piece of answer on the transparency. It's quite embarrassing because he showed it to the class and said that the answer didn't make any sense. *booo* Anyhoo, after racking my brain for some time I finally could see the 'light' and discovered the answer. I had a pretty tough time explaining to the rest of the group though, it's going to be even worse explaining to the rest of the class. Anyway, I'm not even 100% sure it's correct? We'll see =).

After physics, which ended at 2 35pm, 10 minutes later than it's supposed to be, I rushed down and met Aunty Chew Eng in her car. She brought me to the American Club for lunch okay! I was suggesting... prata, satay, etc. WOW! I felt so out of place in my school uniform inside and it was pretty cold. 90% of the people inside were ang mohs. She ordered spaghetti with clams and got me a 12-inch pizza. She told me it was only 'this' big *she made this roughly 20cm diameter round shape* so I said okay, but it turned out to be sooo huge! I was soooo bloated I could only swallowed in 5 pieces and that was seriously the max. We talked so much! It was such a great time I had with her, it's nice knowing her better. =) After that we got this sunday ice cream which she claimed that she couldn't even afford to take a spoon in anymore. She was too full. *laughs* She drove me home after that, and I fell asleep till 8.

Yesterday was my last day shopping. I was with sis and I think we were really crazy. We started at 12 plus after church and went home at 9 30 at night. SIAO? I think so. *lmao* We bought quite a lot of stuff so feel quite guilty. But, what's done is done, so =) just be happy. Alrightey, I gotta go back to physics. *groan* I'm really getting bored that's why I came to blog, besides wanting to talk to kor soooo much. (I MISS YOU KOR)*slap face* OKAY MUST GO NOW. TC EVERYBODY OKAY? STUDY HARRRRRDDDD...... toodddlleez!

JUBILEE

2004-07-09T19:07:00.000+08:00

OMG I JUST REALISED THAT I HAVEN'T BLOGGED FOR MORE THAN A WEEK!?!?!?!?!?! *run around screaming* HAHAS! Enough of nonsense, at least I'm back now! *laughs* CHINESE ORAL WASN'T easy at alll!!! But I shall not WHHIIIIINNNEEE & GGRRRROOAAANN about it now. All you have to know that I'm disappointed with myself. Anyhoo! Nothing can stop me now from being excited =) Not even my flunked Chinese oral. RAH! Lol! Aiyyyoo!! I just feel sooooo happy right now. I can't think of anything much to highlight for this week. HMMM... Let me see, okay? Dad came exactly last week, sis and I went Changi to fetch him. He looked so much better now with all his smiles. He didn't look as stressed as the previous visit. So, I guess that's really I should thank God for. I always feel sad when I see him getting so stressed up. So, his smiles certainly brightened up my weekends. We went out everyday (duh), he only came for 3 days! So, we spent the weekend strolling around town and the city looking for his laptop, and receiver. OHHHH!!! I miss my daddddyyyyy!!!!!! =(((((( Why must he go back so sooonnn... *sniff sniff*

As soon as dad left Singapore I started shopping in Spotlight for all the materials for the soft toy. Yeah, I've been spending the week sewing soft toy till EARLY in the morning. The earliest was 4 30 AM. Surprisingly I didn't fell asleep in class that morning. I really like 3 AM, it's so quiet and peaceful. I poked myself many many times these days. There're a few that were really deep, but I found the wound pretty cool, that one dot with thick red liquid flowing out, like lava flowing out of the crater of a volcano. OKAY IGNORE THAT. I'M TOO LAZY TO BACKSPACE. The outcome was pretty satisfying. Except that if I had more time it would be even better. But nevertheless it was good enough... it look like an american football alright so it's fine. The box was a little bit too large. In fact, it's way too big! It's almost 1 m in length and about half metre in width and height. The ball is only about 3/4 of those measurement. When I inserted the ball into the box, it looked sooooo freaking weird okay. So, I decided to write a lot of stuff inside the box to make it look more 'filled' somehow. It actually worked! It looked much better. Ah I love it. I really really do love it. I hope he likes it too. :)

I'm back to mugging. Actually studying is nice... I just hate exams because I always think that it's utterly not accurate in a sense and the results don't show ANYTHING. Sure, it discriminates those that can excell from those that really can't. But seriously, things might happen during the exam and one who's supposed to excell may just be affected by some factors and ended up with bad results. Does that then show that he/she has no chance to excell? NONSENSE. Obviously he/she does! *sigh* Haha I think I'm quite out of point. *lmao* Hmmm. I want to change my background. I already browsed some nice skins just now, will change whenever I'm free. Maybe tomorrow or something. I still kind of like my this skin, it's pretty, don't you think so? Besides, there ain't many nice skins nowadays and I wouldn't spend time trying to figure out how to make my own skin, although I don't think it's THAT hard but nah. Time's too precious on these kind of stuff.

Olympics is coming! I'm so excited. I got a feeling that Federer will meet Roddick again. But, that would be really exciting, he'll have another chance to beat the world no.1. He might not win again, but there's always a possibility. =) Roddick's injured now though.. *sniff* I hope he recovers in time for US open. =) He better make sure he defends his title eh?

I feel like taking a nap now, but usually I don't wake up anymore. That's pretty dangerous ain't it? I'll just make sure my sis will really really wake me up. Usually she doesn't succeed in waking me up. YES, I'm a heavy sleeper. That's why sleeping a little is a torture to me. But past few days have been a different case. I had the strength to endure. I WANT TO WATCH SPIDEY 2 AGAINN!!!! SERIOUSLY! <3<3<3 But I ain't got enough money...... *coughHINTcough* anyone wants to sponsor? lol

Alrite, I think I should get going now. I'll have A maths test tmr. yawn. Speaking of a maths, I got back my re exam few days ago. I've told you I felt the a maths runnind into my blood again. I got B3! from E8! Lol. Ops I just let away my mid year results. MIND BLOCK SUCKS! I want my distinction back! I REALLY DO! I'll work even harder this time. OKAY GOODDDIIEE NIGHT FOR EVERYONEEE... lots n lots n lots of love from meee!!!

WHORT A LORNG ERNTRRYY...............

2004-07-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

start typing : 4 56pm

I'M BACK! hahahhaa school was fine today! I like today at least =) I simply love Thursday's time table. There's PE today and we learnt volleyball. As expected, Ms. Teo DID indeed asked me to demonstrate how to dig properly. -PIANG- It was utterly embarrassing okay? Firstly, it wasn't a volleyball used, instead it's some SOFT RUBBER BALL! *rahhhh* Secondly, we were playing in the hall, which means that I had to really control not to hit to the fan. If that's a real volleyball I would be able to control easily, but it's a rubber ball and it's super soft, so it bounces so easily! I didn't even need to swing much and the ball would bounce way too high for Ms. Teo to catch. I felt damn bad and embarrassed. *laughs* I can't wait for next week, I hope she'll let us use real ball and we're learning service. MY FAVOURITE! *grin* My hands are itching for volleyball now. No worries! Training is just one day away =) I got E maths test after school though. How sad can it be, we have E maths test every week. =( BAH! Plus, I have A maths every week too! Oh well, if I don't get A1s for both for prelim n o level I'll just jump down =) JUST JOKING! *lol*

We had history toO! It's so interesting to watch this video on Hitler n Stalin the two most unbelievable men I'd ever come across. I mean SERIOUSLY! You should watch it man. Gosh! I mean I know they're MAD men but I didn't expect them to be TTTHHHAAATTT MADDDD!!!! Although Hitler's from Germany n Stalin's from Russia, you can note that there are indeed many many similarities in these two MAD MEN.

HITLER & STALIN

+both were abused when they were young

+both of their first wives/gfs died mysteriously (if u're thinking bout some obvious suspects *coughHITLERcoughSTALINcough* yeah you're probably right. Hitler either killed her or helped her committed suicide just because she got pregnant with this Jew. He just hated Jew SOOOOO MUCHHHHHH! I forgot why Stalin 'killed' his -____-)

+both were VERY VERY intelligent but stubborn

+both LOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEDDDDD war to death

+both are PARANOID! (Hitler bombed the town where his grandfather lived because he suspected that his grandfather MIGHT had Jewish blood and he wanted to make sure that no one knew about it. well everyone KNOWS now muahahhaha *evil* That bombing is the start of Jews-killing that Hitler's well-known off)(Stalin got rid of Trotsky who died mysteriously too *coughSTALINcouh* and erased all his historical records including making him 'disappear' in photos just like if you use adobe photoshop and erase your pimples yaddaryaddar. man how cool is that? I didn't know that 50 years ago there's already such a high technology and Russia was supposed a really poor country so obviously someone must be corrupting *coughSTALINcough*)

+both were in church choir and wanted to be PRIESTS!!! (OH MY GOSH CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??? I MEAN SERIOUSLY!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT????? So much for being sooooooooo 'holy')

+both of them killed MILLIONS of their own people (Hitler killed 10 millions, only counting the Jews. Stalin killed 20 millions)

+both thought that their people are superior *cough* and were the best *snort*

some extra facts
-Hitler actually hated Stalin, Stalin seemed neutral towards Hitler
-Stalin was 10 years older than Hitler

back to similarities
+both are STUPID in a sense (Stalin and Hitler signed Nazi-Soviet pact and Stalin actually was soooo stupid to believe the sweet stuff Hitler said and thought that Hitler would definitely keep his promise *sigh*. Hitler was stupid enough to break the Nazi-Soviet pact and attack Russia. LOOK AT THE MAP FIRST! How BIG is Russia compared to tiny Germany? Russia did appear to be losing at first at the attack that's called Operation Barbarossa -pls excuse spelling am not very sure- but Russia had such a big population that ultimately won Germany)

+both are simply CRAAAAZZZYYY over PPRRROOOPAGAAAANNDDAA (they had parade every week and people had to carry around their photos and basically their faces must appear EVERYWHERE and the people were actually dancing to Nazis songs? Ms. Chow rolled her eyes n said 'girls, can you imagine you have to dance to 'stand up for Singapore'?" *laughs* she's so farnie)

+both are just MAD (don't you agree???)

Okay, I think that's enough of history lecture, but seriously I think history is a reallllllyyy nice subject. It's soooo interesting! I love it =)))))) RODDICK IS IN SEMIS! But, I'm really worried bout tonight's match, against Mario Ancic and this guy actually beat Henman and Ancic happens to be the only guy that ever won one set over Roddick in ALL the matches Roddick has played on grass so far this year, although ultimately Roddick won the match =) Yeah, this guy's got something man! He CAN beat Roddick, I'm quite sure. But, if Roddick gives his best today, he'll definitely outpower this guy. So, all the best Andy! Hopefully I'll get to pray for your finals... Which will be against Federer. *lol* I just KNOW that Federer will get into finals la. No one can stop him right now. Not even Roddick. Unless he has a bad day and Roddick is reallllllyy playing his best tennis and give his 153mph-serve all the time =) EVERYONE SUPPORT RODDICK NOW!!! Oh speaking of tennis, I got a new tennis coach now. ALAN!!! MY OWNN PRIMARY SCHOOL MATE who came to Spore after p4 (I think) while I still studied my p5 n p6 in Indo. I didn't know that he's in SINGAPORE as I lost total contact with him! I just found him in Friendster recently and was soooooooooooooooooo happy to find him again! He's in Maris Stella (okay I always get this wrong, izzit Stella Maris or Maris Stella?) and he's in TENNIS n he's CAPTAIN whooaaahhhhh *bow down* (as if I'm not smth similar to that *ego ego* JKJK) aiiiyyoohhh!!! I'm just so happy when we were bursting with all our 'updates' on msn messenger. there were just ennddless things to say to him n vice versa. I missss my pri school friends!!! Anyway, he kept calling himself Alan Roddick *laughs* I'll call him that if he can serve 153mph =) It happens that he stayed really near my house in Jakarta, it's like walking distance and I never realised that when I was in primary school *lmao* So, during the holidays, he'll be coming over to my apartment and teach me tennis! yay! I can't wait for December =))))))))))))) I got personal coach now! Muahaha muahha muahahhahaha hahahaha hahhahahaaaaa...........

Enough of Roddick, =) I didn't expect Russ to tag my board hahahha that's nice of you Russ!!! Awww *huggiez*! See la! You all never tag my board one =( hahhaha but it's okay, it doesn't really matter actually. Thanks again Russ I'll smile smile smileeee alllll daaaa time aight??!?! =>

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE FOR O LEVEL ORAL

I'm in a mission of sewing a giant object now. It's going to be really really though but I'm going to give my best into it and after I finish, everything's about MUGGING. *gee* All the best for my new sewing mission. I'm going to retire after this. *ROFLOL* I'll sew again after JC lol. No la, sewing is really fun I really really like it so I'll just do it when I'm free. => I'm listening to these Indo songs and they're reallllllyyyy nice n farnie! I really love Indo songs. <3 Oh I have some recommendation for nice songs for NOW (I get bored of most songs after some time, those that I never ever get bored of will be my favourites): 'somewhere only we know' by Keane, 'everybody's changing' by Keane, 'accidentally in love' by counting crows, 'move your body' by nina sky, 'all night (don't stop)' by janet jackson, 'NAUGHTY GIRL' by beyonce knowles, there's one more called 'look what you've done' but I'm not sure who it's by. Anyhoo, these are the songs spinning in my head non-stop for NOW. I'll get bored of them soon =) haha!

I'm really feeling good today. A little bit sleepy though, which is why I'm going to catch some nap after this. I'll finish up all my English hw tonight and study e maths. So take care everyone yepz? I loveeee allllll of youuuuuuuu thhheeerreeeeeee!!!!!

finished typing : 5 46pm

everytime i think about it can't stop thinking bout it

2004-06-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

AHHH IT'S SUCH A LONG DAY TODAY! I slept at 3 30 AM in the morning, could have gone on but I understood that I really needed some sleep. *laughs* I wasn't as sleepy as yesterday in school. Yesterday I had about 7 hours sleep and I almost fell asleep in front of Mrs. Low doing my comprehension. Today, I was fighting hard to keep my eyes open and it was fine. A maths exam was alright, MUCH MUCH easier than mid year I have to say. But, after the exam, everyone's saying that it's harder plus they cut off half an hour so it's only two hours as compared to mid year's two and half hours. The difference of this exam and mid year was... mid year : almost all questions I did halfway and got stuck, the whole paper maybe only about less than 5 questions I actually got the answers (not saying they're correct) re exam : finished few minutes before the two hours, finished every single question and got all the answers (not saying they're correct either) BUT AT LEAST I FINISHED EVERYTHING? hahhaa... I finished!!!! yay! I just felt the A maths starting to flow into my blood now, and it seems like my mind block is starting to unblock =)))) hard work during the holidays did pay off.. =))))))))

one more thing that makes me soooo happy today! You* are such a nice and sweet person.. You* actually meant your words and sincerely want to be my friend. You* know how to touch my heart and make me smile when I'm really broken hearted. You* know how to feel guilty when you hurt me and try your best to make me happy again. You* passed a hug through my school mate. Do you* know that when she hugs me and told me that it's from you*, my jaw dropped and I bent down and covered my face and wiped the tears that rolled down my cheeks. I want you* to know that you*'re really really special to me and I hope that you* believe me. I miss you*

okay I'm quite pissed now but it's fine.. I'm cooling down.. I'm going to do my hw now so toodlez.. =)))))) SMILE ALWAYS!! BE HAPPY!!!

uh oh there are more pics for 48 chalet up.. taken by Simone I think.. hahah! enjoy!

CHALET!!!!

2004-06-25T19:07:00.000+08:00

4/8 class chalet was fabulous! We met up at Pasir Ris MRT at 1 pm and I was late so I took a cab down, wasted so much money! Anyhoo, we made out way down to Downtown East Chalet. Ms Wan came only after about half an hour of waiting. So, we took a few pics and surfed the net while waiting for her. When we got to our room, everyone started to lie down on the bed. *laughs* We took more pics. After that, few other people came and joined us, we made our way down to barbeque pit. I choped the cucumber and was in charge of barbequeing chicken wings and satays. *lol* Hey, my chicken wings ain't that bad okay, everyone loves it. More people came down after tuition but they already ate so we had to finish ur the food ourselves. We only finished at about 10, started to take turn to shower. We then watched 'American Wedding' *grin* Ms. Wan brought the DVDs so... yeap. HAHA. The movie was super hilarious! Anyhoo, after that they wanted to watch 'The Exorcist' so Gen, Joyce n me decided to leave n take a walk arnd the place. We went arcade and played for some time, cause we couldn't afford pool and bowling. We also ate cup noodles to kill time. Finally the movie ended at about 2 plus. They spinned '50 First Dates' then. I took a shower as I watched it before. After that, everyone TRIED to sleep but to no avail. So, at about 5, they decided to walk down the Pasir Ris park. I didn't join in as I already took out my lenses and didn't bring my glasses. So, I tried to sleep on the floor while sms-ing. They came back at about 7. I was half asleep by then. I could still hear all the noises though. I woke up again at 9 AM. Most people were already awake by then. *laughs* I'm such a pig*

SECOND DAY! Bonnie, Xianwei, Kelly, Inka, Joyce and me went to 'Wild Wild Wet' at about 11. The sky was dark and they had to close temporarily due to the thunder. We waited in the queue and ate breakfast. It was open not long after, we got in and realised that the place was SUPER crowded! We queued for about half an hour for each ride. The record was the water work, we queued for about one hour and e ride wasn't even that thrilling. heh. We were all freezing as it started to drizzle and the wind was blowing our wet bodies. bbbrrr! We met Claudia, Hailing, YangLing and Julianne there. They went slightly later than us. Anyway, we played till about 5, everyone left except for me and Bonnie. She was furious when she found out that she got shorts tan. So, she made me to company her till she got rid of her shorts tan. We played the scariest ride (forgot the name) twice again. After that, we just played around the 'Shiok River' which was quite fun as the place was getting more empty. We were making our second or third round when I suddenly heard someone calling my voice. ALAMAK! Andrea n Russ were up the balcony outside their church fren's chalet there waving at me! *ROFLOL* I was shocked but was pleased to see them. The current was pretty strong and the life guards were staring at me and Bonnie, so we couldn't really talk to Andrea. Anyway, we made another round and this time, I managed to hold on to the side and hid from the guard. So I talked to them for a lil while before telling them that I was getting out of that place. Bonnie and I made out final round and got out of the place. We had to go back all the way to chalet with our swimming costume (her) n bikini (me) and our slippers! I was freezing! Anyway, let me tell u smth. To enter to the chalet, you have to pay $1 EVERYDAY and get a chop for a sign. On the second day, I did not pay up at all and didn't get any new chop. HOWEVER, I actually passed the guard 8 times that day and the guard just saw the barely visible chop on my hand under the purple light, and let me in. So many times! So many different guards! All my other friends got caught and got to pay. *laughs* lucky me! I showered and discovered that many of my classmates had gone to Escape Theme park. heh. so fun. Anyhoo, I joined Joyce, Andrea n Russ near the arcade and had a good chat with them. =) Andrea n Russ then left for their church fren's chalet. Me n Joyce went back to chalet and we ate chocolate cake! YUMMM!!! We joined Andrea n frens again at BK. Everyone went back to andrea's fren's chalet again and left me Joyce Andrea n claudia. We played arcade for a lil while and went to the club's lobby and sat n talked. It was really really fun! Andrea's frens came back and Andrea got to leave =(. Russ, Joyce, Claud and me went back to arcade and played the whole night. Russ is pro man! He trashed us in almost everything! RAH! He went home after that. All of us went back to chalet.

DAY THREE MIDNIGHT: START OF NEW DAY at 12 AM, everyone started lying down on the bed. Joyce got into her sleeping bag and started to sleep, she asked me to wake her up when soccer match started. Only Claud and I stayed up to watch Kill Bill. It was one good movie but SUPER DUPER TRIPLE VIOLENT! SO SCARY! But it's different from any movies I've watched so I like it a lot! =) The movie ended at about 2 45, just nice for soccer match. By then, Nicole, Bonnie, Inka, Simone n Joyce were asleep. Kelly n XianWei were half asleep. I tried to wake Joyce up but she couldn't so yup. Simone woke up to watch soccer, Claudia went to sleep. At minute 41, we gave up and slept. zzzzzz. 9 AM I woke up. Everyone else except for Bonnie was already awake *embarrassed* lol. They already finished packing up! I felt so bad. Anyhoo, Bonnie n I finally got up and got changed. We made finally packing up and checked out. That's the end of 4/8 CHALET =)))))

I really enjoyed it man! hahaha anyway, I'm not allowed to go out anymore. So, I have to study all the time when I'm not sleeping. I have been doing A maths the whole day. I'm starting to get bored! RAH! Andy Roddick's playing now =) I think he'll win in straight sets. I WANT TO WATCH SOCCER GAME TONIGHT!!! HOPE MY SIS WILL LET ME HAVE MY FINAL STAY OVER! PLSSSS.... When school reopens I can forget bout going out anymore. So, I hope I can get my final holiday? plssssss.... Photos are up! So, you guys can check it out! Oh yah! You can go to my sister's blog. She put up this 'SECRET DIARY OF CASTS IN LORD OF THE RINGS' It's damn hilarious. *thumbs up* Go read! Okay, gotta go back to A maths. Hopefully after studying so much today, I deserve a sleep over =) so cya ppl...... MUACKKSSS!!!!

soledad

2004-06-21T16:42:00.000+08:00

I'm not feeling happy. I'm honest. In fact, I'm feeling really really sad right now, at this point of time. I don't want to mention names here. When I go around reading people's blogs, I see them being sad over BGR, or being back stabbed, etc etc. Right now, I feel sad because I feel lonely. I feel most lonely NOW than I ever did in my whole entire life. It's been four years running since I left my home and until now, I still feel the same as I did four years ago. As if, I'm alone in this world. I have no one to run to when I face problems and difficulties. Sure thing, I have plenty of school friends but will you believe me that only ONE out of the whole school actually ask me out during the holiday? Yeah, that's how bad it is. 4 years running yet everything's the same. I will not blame the fact that I moved class from sec 1 to 2, and moving to sec 3, everyone dispersed into different classes and the whole year I took to get to know many friends in my class seemed to go down the drain as they all go to different classes. In sec 3, of course I got to know new friends but these people have their own cliques yes definitely we're close to each other but not to that extent whereby your name will appear in their head when they want to hang out in town for shopping. By now, everything is exactly like in sec 3. My closest friend is not even in my class. sigh. I don't know what's wrong with me at this point. Maybe, I just have to face the fact that I seriously can't stay in singapore and its a sign that I have to leave soon. I was thinking of after JC, but the loneliness that I feel now is so great that I can't wait to leave right after O level. I never say that in the new country that I'm going to go to will give me more friends. It's probably going to be the same. or even worse. Well, but at least I won't have the stress of studies there.

Ok. I don't want to say anymore. I kinda regretted typing all those but oh well just tryin to be honest and speaking out my mind. Not that I'm anti singaporeans. you guys are great. maybe it's just me. I'm just weird. I'm not like you all. I'm really sorry if I've been irritating all this while. Just know that I'll do anything to make you all smile, even if I have to suffer in the process I'll endure. this is the path God wants me to take so if I have to live a lonely life, so be it. Someone definitely make me smile today. and I thank God for that. I may be more lucky than thousands of people in the world. So, why am I still complaining. I'll get over this lonely thingie. I feel it occasionally. That's what life is when u're overseas and not living with your parents. yup. I thank God for all my friends that I have. I feel lucky to have met you all. Without you all, I don't know what I would have been right now.

I have a class chalet to look forward to so, =) I shall have fun. I'm sorry bout whatever wrong I've said and done to anyone. I never meant anythin. just pms-ing. *laughs* kae. I gotta do lots of hws now. so see ya! uh oh yah.. just started using friendster, don't like the whole idea but oh well. wanted to write a testimony for banana gang badly so forced myself to download it. I think it's crappy though. Don't waste time writing testi for me aight. lol. I'm not speaking proper English today. just todddayyyyy pwweeaseeeee....

2ND PART

2004-06-18T16:20:00.000+08:00

okay! Here we are, part two of yesterday's super long blog. HAHA! So, where did I stop yesterday? Hmmm. Oh, I think I'll tell you about what happened while I was waiting for Bert at Mac Ritchie bus stop. An old lady with her probably grandchild asked me how to go to zhe2 wu4 yuan2. My chinese was so bad that I actually thought it was the ZOO?!?!??! OMG! I easily told her in CHINESE that she had to take 167 or 980 and changed to 138 straight to the zoo. Apparently my chinese is so bad that I couldn't even speak properly and I don't think the lady quite understood me. Anyhoo, when 167 came, I went up to the bus driver to tell her to drop at the correct place. But, after the bus went off I realised that there were two Ang Mo Kio road junction and the one that she had to get down at was the second one. So, I was so darn worried that she got down at the wrong place and the bus 138 would NEVER reach her at that bus stop. OH SHHESSSSHH!!!! That's far from the end. Bert came few minutes after 167 left and I told him everything, we took 855 to Ying's and decided to get down at the bus stop where the bus driver would have probably dropped the lady. However, we couldnt see her at the bus stop and we checked to the correct bus stop after the second junction of Ang Mo Kio. I FOUND OUT THAT THE SECOND ANG MO KIO JUNCTION IS YIO CHU KANG JUNTION! OMG I WANTED TO DIG A HOLE AND BURY MYSELF! We couldn't find her at both bus stops so we decided to just go to Ying's house. The next part of this story will come soon.

When we got to Ying's, I opened the gate lock as I already know the combination no of the lock. I placed the giant banana right in front of the door and called Ying. She was still sleeping but woke up from my call. I told her to come down and open the door for me. WELL, she knew smth was up immediately because usually when I go to her house I can simply go through the side door that's already open or climb through the window. But, anyhoo after lots of begging I managed to persuade her to come down 3 storeys just to open the door. =)

Me n Bert hid behind the pillar with plants etc and got my camera ready. We were wondering why Ying was taking so long to come down and were so freaking afraid that she would ask her maid to open the door. My hand was in position for a few minutes and started to ache. FINALLY! We heard the 'click' sound and I started recording the whole event. 1-Ying with her sleepy eyes appeared 2-Ying with her dropped jaw seeing the gigantic banana in front of her feet 3-Ying shouted 'WHAATT THHHEEE!!!!' 4-Ying grabbed the banana and hid behind the door 5-Janice ran nearer to her with the camera 6-Ying appeared back and stared at the camera and just smiled in pleasant shock! 7-Bert appeared from behind 8-Ying smiled even wider cuz she didn't expect Bert to be there!

It was really sweet. I hoped Ying was really touched because if I were her I would have cried. Anyway, pics of this will be uploaded in Ying's site soon. We went to her room and played and took lots n lots of pics. Ying then took a scissor and were ready to open it up! HAHA! Taddaa! -snip snap snip snap- the banana split open and a doggie popped out from inside! Ying's jaw dropped again and pulled doggie out of banana wrapping. She named it CRISPY. Crispy will be the banana gang's first official dog. =) I'm proud to announce that. =p

Bert and I stayed and played till about 2 after which we had lunch and listened to songs till about 3 30. We were supposed to study together I brought all my books etc but they were untouched. Anyhoo, I left at 3 30 while Bert stayed longer in Ying's house. I got home and got changed, went to City Hall to meet my aunts and cousins. Yup, walked around for a few hours and went to their house to get the stuff mom passed to us. BISCUITS BISCUITS AND MORE BISCUITS! YUM!

OH YAH! DID I TELL YOU THAT I BEAT BERT IN POOL 3 GAMES TO 1??!?!?! I WAS SO DARN PROUD OF MYSELF! *lmao* I believed Bert wasn't playing his best. SHAUN AH! WHAT KIND OF STUDENT YOU HAVE! It's only my third time playing pool? For all four games I finished all my balls way before Bert did and was just having difficulties getting the black ball in for my second game which I lost eventually. 3 out of the games when I got all my balls in Bert got 5 left!! MUAHAHHAHA!!!! Shaun!!!! You're my next challenge *LAUGHS*

OKIE, I have Sunday School outing in the Botanical Garden (it's the first time i'm going to be there) in the morning. After that, I'm going to join my cousins and sister in Sentosa for another swim. I hope I won't start peeling tomorrow. =) At night, I might be watchin movie with exco banana gang. See first =) Okay, my kor just better on Italy winning the championship, as well as Croatia. Croatia's my idea *lol* if he wins he'll treat me =) SWENSEN OR HAAGAN DAZ KOR?!?!??! JKJK. Okie I just figured out that my old English TYS doesn't have year 2002. So, I'm in trouble cause I can't do my hw. Nevertheless, I'm going to do other years' just for practice. Haha. Time for me to go. I'll try to blog tomorrow. So, haha. Uh oh, just heard from Ying that her new photo album got a record of 200 visits in one night. Not bad right? Shall I let her put up our photo in bikini? Hmmmm........................... cya peeps

long looonngg ENTRY

2004-06-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

OMG FINALLY I'M BLOGGING! Actually, I've been using the internet everyday but i just always feel lazy to type so much stuff. *laughs* Anyway, I decided to blog today yay. That's simply because I have to so much stuff to say about the pass few days. =) I shall start with Sunday, my two dearest friends and I slept over at YingYi's and it was probably the best sleep over party I ever had in my whole life. Seriously. Jo came only at about 2 so we played monopoly while waiting. After that, we parti-ed in her room till about 3 AM after which we showered and watched France vs England, as well as Rugby. HAHA! It was sooooooooo fun! We were all fighting! UH OH! Before Jo came, three of us were busy taking photos haha it was super fun man! You guys can check out the photos in YingYi's site. We only hit the bed at about 4 plus and me n Jo were trying so hard to sleep because the other two were making sooooo much noise there! AHERM *cough* hahahahahaha!

Anyhoo, we woke up at about 7.30 and were supposed to be in Harbourfront Bus Terminal by 9 AM. However, the lazy and sleepy us, took our time to get ready so we only left house at about 8.30, decided to take a cab down and it ocst about 12 buckz. We met Ben there and took a bus down to Sentosa. Shaun aka Keladi (I know he hate to be called this but oh well too bad =p) joined us not long after that, then all of us get changed and hit the water! The boys then swam to the island opposite and used woods etc to write 'ACSI' haha. There's a pic of it I think. We swam here and there the whole morning. Me n Keladi went to climb the rocks there and I got cut. ARGH! CARELESS MEEEE!!! *ROOOAAARRR* Anyway, before I got cut, I managed to write a 'S U X' underneath the 'ACSI'thing that the boys made. Bert was chasing me all over for that. (yes he managed to got rid of it) I had to endure the excruciating pain when I swam back to the shore. ARGH! *lol*

Oh yah! Before I injured myself, I managed to play touch rugby with Keladi and Jo in my team against Bert and two secondary schools rugby coaches that we met there. OH NO! I TOTALLY SUCK IN RUGBY! It's so difficult and it's only TOUCH! RAAAHH!!! I kept focusing in running behind them and catchin the ball but whenever I caught the ball, Bert would easily WALK to me and touch me and that's it! He didn't even need to run! RAAAHH! I jacked myself totally man! *giggle* But, at least I really enjoyed it so, it's all right *grin* After I got cut, I couldnt swim anymore. =( So, I just lied down under the shade and slept. Keladi was companying me because he felt guilty for the injury I got. hahahahahhahaha. It wasn't even his fault man. But, I did enjoy his company so yerp. =) Thanks shauunnnn *huggiezzz*

There are some pics that you can see in Ying's webbie. Yep. I shall proceed to yesterday. Me and Bert met up in town to go down and buy present for Ying. Ying got into trouble for letting us stay over in her house. She got grounded and everything got confiscated. So both of us felt so bad and decided to get some stuff for her. We bought her this long and big dog soft toy from memory lane. After that, we went to Spotlite in PS and bought 1 M of thick yellow cloth and 3 M brown ribbon and 2 pieces of small brown cloth. I used them to wrap up Ying's present in a form of GIANT BANANA! HOW COOL IS THAT? Of course, the process wasn't easy at all. I started sewing at about 10, and only finished at 3 AM. HAHA. I had to stuff in lots of magazines and newspapers so it look fatter and nicer. WELL, it didn't turn out to look exactly like a banana but still not THAT bad so yep. Slept after that and woke up only at 10. We got down to Ying's house together with our banana. *heh* Something happened in the journey but I'm not saying now because my entry's already way too long. I'll blog about the event that took place today. When we got to Ying's house and dropped the banana. So, come back and check out the next entry alright? =) For now, I seriously need a good rest. My fingers aren't in good shape because I poked myself uncountable times last night. My feet ain't better as I walked in heels the whole afternoon and night with my cousins and aunts that came to Singapore from Indo. I got lots of compliments from them this time as compared to last time. Let's compare. 3 years ago it was 'SOOOO SKIIIINNNNYY BETTER EAT MORE! AND YOU'RE SO DARKK AIIYYYOOOO!!! NOT PRETTY ANYMORE' now, it's like 'SOOOO TALLLL (The last time I saw them was last year and I haven't grown a cm since then) AHHH YOU GROW TALLER AND TALLER (again -___-') AND YOUR FIGURE'S SO NICE NOW. CAN BE A MODEL' yep so there you go. =D Okie dokie, I really need a to lie down on the bed now. So, check out tomorrow's blog okie dorkie? goooooddddniiggghhhttt all you babes and hunks! LOOOOVEEEEEEEEEE *MUUAACCKKZZZ!!!*

BORED

2004-06-11T18:08:00.000+08:00

WHOW! This is the FIRST day of the whole holiday that I didn't go down to town. *laughs* Hey! All these days I did NOT spend my time in Orchard shopping okay? I was studyin in the library, because they're building some condominium next to my house area and it's SUPER DUPER VERY EXTREMELY REALLY NOISY!!!! *ROAAARRR* So, poor me got to go somewhere EVERYDAY to study. One day it was in school , the other was in Airport. Yup! WAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH! Sorry, I'm not feeling very well today. WAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!! I'm talking to my kor now, at the same time doing history SEQ, there are soooo much homework my goodness. Uh oh, my sis and I went to Esprit again yesterday to confirm about the blue shawl, and we decided not to get it yet, because we think that we can't really wear it in Singapore. I mean, seriously, do you often see people walking in town wearing shawl?!?!?!? No right? So, we decided that it's not worth it. Haha. So, I strolled around for a little while more and decided to get the Esprit colourful towel for 9 buckz. Haha. It's so colourful i love it. =) WAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKKAKAKKKKK!!!! Ok, I'm back to crazy mode. JANICE IS MAD!!!! RAHHHHHHH!!!! RUN FOR YOU LIFE!!! *singing HI 5 theme song* Oh no, I've been in my pajamas the whole entire day. WHOPSIE! HEHEHEHHEHEEHHHHHH *GRIN* -KAABBOOOMMM- oh shoot i just fell down from my chair. I don't know why my head is quite dizzy now. Boooo............................ HEH.... I have absolutely no idea what I'm talking aboutttt..... sooooooooo..... I think I better get out nowwwwww... annnddd... do my historrryyyy guai-ly... *yawwwwwwwnnnnnn* -BAM- +janice fell asleep on the table.. droollinggg..+

BIMBO SHOW

2004-06-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

ANOTHER HAPPY DAY!!!!!! Whhheeee!!!! Janice is hap hap happy! *bouncing around* I had a quick shopping with sister today. Very fast. We finally got our belt!!! Yeah sis? It's a real nice one, with a reasonable price ;) *winks*, and a brand. *lol* BUT, we spotted this B E A U T I F U L blue net shawl in esprit! It's so lovely, we're getting it, but first we have to save up. =))))) I'm still thinking about the other belt I saw the other day. Okay, since I'm broke now, I'm going to stop shopping and calculate how much I got to save up, and STUDY. Yay! I studied yesterday! I'm so proud of myself man! *giggle* Went to airport with Markie bozzie yesterday, airport was so PACKED! SERIOUSLY! We were thinking about BK but both terminals' were really full, so we had to settle in some cafe. We studied for a few hours, had dinner, went to Pasir Ris park for a walk and I went home. I had lots of fun! Thanks bozzie... *huggiez* UH OH! My sis and I took some bimbo shoots in our room when we got home just now. OMG We look soooo bimbotic! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH but that's the whole purpose. Heh heh. Okie dokie, not a long entry but haha should do? I'll try to update more often =D. OH OH OH! CORIA LOST IN FRENCH OPEN FINALS!!! WHOOHOOOO!!! I know I'm evil but I'm so glad that he didn't win. I just don't like him. HAHA. GO GAUDIO! YOU ROCK! I wished it could have been Roddick though, oh well! Stella Artois is coming! He's going to defend his title. GO RODDICK YOU CAN DO IT! Alrightey, time to rest and talk with my darling kor. Goodnight everybody. Toodlez!

O HAPPY DAY!

2004-06-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

"till I get over you" Michelle Branch

Every time I feel alone
I can blame it on you...And I do, oh
You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue

We both know...that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice
(Chaque fois que tu ton va)
You just bring me down
(je pretend que tu fais bien)
So I'm counting my tears 'til I get over you...

Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it's like
To wake up every single day...Smile on your face
You...never tried

We both know...we can't change it
But we both know we'll just have to face it

If only I could give you up
But would I want to let you off... of this soapbox baby?

We both know we can't change it
But we both know you left me no choice

We both know that I'm not over you...
I'm not over you

Yay! Finally I have a happy happy entry! *LOL* Everyone talks about Chinese paper so guess I shall not? OOH HAPPY DAYYY OH HAPPY DAYY..!! I went out with YingYi and a bunch of 'old friends' *LOL* they were supposed to come to YingYi's house and watch shows together but they didn't want to in the end. SO, me and YingYi got free tickets to watch Shrek 2 with the kids. WAHAHHAHAHA. GOOD MOVIE!!! 4 / 5 stars ! We went bowling after that, some funny things happened, shall not say out here. =p I got second kae! I'm soooooo proud of myself *MUAHAHHAHAHAH*, considering i haven't touched bowling since years ago, I felt quite achieved. *grin* After that we went to my friend's house and we were playing like mad! It was so fun. I really enjoyed yesterday a lot, I love hanging out with old pals, it's really fantastic. Ah well... LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! THANKS FOR THE WONDERFUL DAY!!! I REALLY HAD FUN!!!! Today, I only studied for an hour plus! OH NO! *guilty* I'll have to make it up on Thursday, I'm going to be busy again tomorrow! Anyway, I went out in the afternoon, met sister at Raffles City. It's pretty crowded today, but not THAT crowded. So it was just fine. ((((((= GUESS WHAT? My one of my heels' sole came out! I didn't realise it! SO, I had to walk all the way back to TAKA ( I was there twice already in the same day), to U.R.S, and got a new pair. *SIGH* I had no choice i only like their shoes, and they have reasonable prices, especially with the sale *wakakkakaka*. I love HELLS AND SKIRTS! I can't help it! Anyway, I met my primary school friends! I was so happy when i saw them, they're scholars by the way *pei fuuuu*, they got into SJI, smart ppl! RAH! So glad to see them, at least i still can recognise my primary school friends, well they're trying to adapt to Singapore's environment. BE PREPARED FOR THE SINGAPORE STRESS MAN! GOOD LUCK TO RICKY AND DARIUS! I love today. Alright, my back is aching, I better lie on the bed now.... AHHHHHHHH tired and sleepppyyyyyyyyyyy *yawn*.. zzZZZzzZZZzzZZzzzz...

great depression

2004-05-27T02:11:00.000+08:00

Yo, it's pretty late right now, about 2 plus in the morning. I'm still trying to remember the 'lovely' Chinese words into my head. I just checked tennis result, *sigh* Roddick lost to some farnie guy from France. One thing i want to do now is to SCREAM AS LOUD AS I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just can't take it! It seems like everything turns out so badly right now. First it's my exam results, the kind of marks i got was really terrible. I couldn't believe it because i must say that the papers weren't THAT hard and I'm supposed to get distinctions on at least 4 subjects. I only got 2 A1s! And what's the worst thing? I failed 4?!?!?!??! It's so impossible! They pushed my English mark to a pass. So, i failed 3 overall? Oh yucks! I actually passed up my rough papers instead of my answer scripts for Chemistry essay section! HELLOO?!??!?! Janice what were you doing?!??! I lost so many marks! Of course, in the end i failed it, my chem has never been good, B-C but this time i failed! As for A maths, i really have no comment. The paper was easy. I just couldn't seem to unblock my mind that was blocked in last year's final exam. Its long term effect is really driving me crazy. I understand my work, I remembered all my formulaes,I practised hard. But, the things can't seem to return to my mind. So what if I got A1 last mid year, it's a FAIL now, and i really have to put in my A maths into my L1R5. I have to get back my A1! Someone help me! How to unblock my blocked mind?!??! *sob* This is such a sad entry. I can't help it. Everyone says it's no use dreading about it, but does anyone really understand how i feel? When your parents work so hard to send you overseas to study, you should be studyin really hard and scoring good grades to show it to them how much you appreciate their hard work. Look at me! My results are getting worse and worse, but what's the most demoralising thing? I studied hard for my papers.. Really hard... I'm sure i studied harder than some people who actually scored much higher than me. What's going on? Yes, I have to meet at least two teachers on Saturday when i collect my report book, and it's 2 days before Chinese 'O's? IF I break down and collapse after the parent-teacher dialogue. I'm dead for sure. Why can't the school just leave me alone for a few days? I just want to concentrate in my Chinese! Give me a break! I've been trying so HARD to forget about the results and really focus in my Chinese, and the school has wonderfully organised a netball carnival that required us to practise everyday. I was so tired by the time i got home everyday, couldn't touch Chinese stuff at all! Now that it's over and I can really study, comes all these parent-teacher talk thingie. I still have to make an 'ACTION PLAN' on study strategies during the holidays. HELLO? Do you know how depressing it is when i started writing out my target grade and stuff? I don't even want to think about those things first. I want to STUDY CHINESE! I WANT TO PASS MY CHINESE! I WANT TO GET A GOOD GRADE FOR CHINESE! I DON'T WANT TO LET MY PARENTS DOWN AGAIN... Oh by the way, my aggregate is JUST over 20. My target for Mid year exams is 15. So, I've done myself 'PROUD'. Well done, Janice. My EL (L1) is already 6, with 2 E8s, i have to put in my D7 for chem, so that's already 13? And with simple calculation adding up 4 other subjects, it'll be 13+1+1+3+3= 21! Taddaaahh! My average percentage dropped by 10%. Cool eh? I'm DEPRESSED. Goodbye RJC. Goodbye NJC. Goodbye ACJC. I'm going to other country. Nah. *sigh* I hope that i can cut my aggregate by half. At least. i need an 8! I want an 8! Alright enough of screaming. I'm going back to Chinese. I wonder what time i'm sleeping tonight, oh more like this morning? There'll hardly be any smile worn on my face. I need to cry again.

I'm doomed

2004-05-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

I'm dead

wakakkakakakakakakakkkkkkk....

2004-05-09T17:18:00.000+08:00

"The Reason" by hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

ahhh nice song nice song! Aye i'm so so soooo sick of studying, so what i did was i went town for a walk after church. It's really refreshing! Yay, i feel fresh to start studying again. E maths paper tomorrow yay! I'm going to eat sushi with sister later, my treat! HOHOHO. I love you cie *huggiez*. Oh i saw a nice skirt in ripcurl but they don't have my size! RAH! All the other nice skirts are way too short for me. I mean they ain't too short but i don't like wearing skirts that are too short. I mean, *giggle* I can't even bend down or squad when i wear them, and i'll have to be extra careful when i sit. *groan* At most, if i wear them to somewhere when i just have to stand, then maybe ain't too bad. You see, sometimes i get pissed with my long legs because it seems like all the nice skirts are so short! *sniff* but thank God for that, i don't have to spend $$$. =))))))) Saw an O-K length one at Esprit, and it says 'SPARKLING' at the back, where your bum's gonna be. *laughs* It's pretty nice, hmmmm but thinking about it, nah! I saw my dress at bcbg again, so confused now, don't know whether i should get it or not. *sigh* I'll consider about it for awhile more. I'm scared that I'll regret buying it, i mean it's not few buckz thing I'm talking about it's... ALOT! So.. yerp, see first. Ok, I've finished rivising about 3/4 of my E maths, 1/2 of Geog, 1/3 for Chem, 1/2 for Physics, and about 1/3 of A maths? And, that don't really include doing TYS. OH NO! I only completed about 1/5 of all my TYS!!!!! I'm so dead. I find it surprising that a sentence like 'aiya! only mid year what, don't need to mug la! company me to take photographs!' from my sister!?!??!?! It's so.. unbelievable! I mean, she's always the one being so concerned about my studies. *lol* ANYWAY, I'm leaving soon for SUSHI!!!! YUM YUM YUMMMMMMM!!! Waiting for the green light from my sister. Uh oh, I want to say something, I'm sooooooo annoyed with the fact that I have hyper-active skin! Every single cut that i get will grow into kyloids! ARGH! My injured finger is practically becoming the similar scar i had from the iron mark on my right arm. It's soooo UGLY! I regret not getting a stich for it. *SOB* I've decided, if I have the money I'll get a surgery in future. I really need it! I mean, have you ever seen the scar on my right arm? It's AWFUL! But then again, it makes me special *lol* no one has it okay! Not a single person in this world (((((((((= Alrightey! Did i mention that I'm getting a pool of pimples on my forehead? I'm so STRESSED! OPS! Sister is calling! I better get going, cya everyone. I LOVE ALL YOU BABES AND HUNKS.. *SMMMUUAACCKKZZZ*

So-ci-al Star-dee

2004-05-06T16:31:00.001+08:00

Social studies exam was HARD, DIFFICULT, NO.1 KILLER. Oh my gosh, i tell you this is the first time ever i stared at the question paper for at least 5 minutes. Everyone did the source based questions first. Me, being kia-su and afraid that i would forget all the facts, decided to do the essays first. Guess what? only one out of 4 looked do-able! I had to do 2!!! RAH! First, it's DIPLOMACY N DETTERENCE. CRAP! I've never ever liked that chapter for one reason -- I failed all my tests on that chapter. I decided not to study just that single chapter for exam. IT CAME OUT!!! So, i was left with no choice but to do precious resource : people. But, i could only do the first question, and i spent too much time on it 25 min! As i had no idea how to write the second essay, i decided to do source based questions first. Again, i spent too much time on my first two questions and ended up rushin for my other two questions which carried 7 marks each. ARGH. This is the first time ever my time management was sooooooooo screwed. I'm going to fail my second essay. *sobs* there goes my A down the drain. I don't even think i can get a B now. *sigh* I'm so disappointed with myself. I need the As to cover up my chinese, because it's really low. I probably got lowest in class for that. ='( haix. Thank God for the bad results i get, now i realised that my HARD works aren't HARD enough. I pray that i can pass my chinese O. JUST A C6 WILL DO! I wished i could just take higher malay or something. At least i can definitely achieve some grades in my mother tongue then. URGH. Anyway, enough of complaining and whining. hee hee. Sheesh better study now, History paper tomorrow, better get a really good grade for this so that it can pull up my ss. toodlez!

THIS IS A STORY OF A GIRL
she got to know him through a friend of her
he thought that she was desperate to get to know him
she explained how he got into her msn list by accident
they made friends with each other
she started to talk more often with him
she shares her joy and sorrow with him
she laughs her lungs out to him
she sobs her heart out to him
she's busy
he's busy
they rarely meet
but they're close in relationship
so near yet so far
she feels comfortable when he's around
but he likes another girl
she feels jealous
she doesn't know why
she feels hopeless and helpless
she doesn't understand why
she realises that his happiness is the most important thing
she feels happy for him
she won't give up
because she loves him

YET ANOTHER STORY *lol*
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said... Your not pretty, your beautiful, i dont want to be with you forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die...
enough of STORY
it's time for HISTORY
wth I'm being super lame here. *hee hee* aight! See you all my babes and hunks!

2004-05-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

Social studies exam was HARD, DIFFICULT, NO.1 KILLER. Oh my gosh, i tell you this is the first time ever i stared at the question paper for at least 5 minutes. Everyone did the source based questions first. Me, being kia-su and afraid that i would forget all the facts, decided to do the essays first. Guess what? only one out of 4 looked do-able! I had to do 2!!! RAH! First, it's DIPLOMACY N DETTERENCE. CRAP! I've never ever liked that chapter for one reason -- I failed all my tests on that chapter. I decided not to study just that single chapter for exam. IT CAME OUT!!! So, i was left with no choice but to do precious resource : people. But, i could only do the first question, and i spent too much time on it 25 min! As i had no idea how to write the second essay, i decided to do source based questions first. Again, i spent too much time on my first two questions and ended up rushin for my other two questions which carried 7 marks each. ARGH. This is the first time ever my time management was sooooooooo screwed. I'm going to fail my second essay. *sobs* there goes my A down the drain. I don't even think i can get a B now. *sigh* I'm so disappointed with myself. I need the As to cover up my chinese, because it's really low. I probably got lowest in class for that. ='( haix. Thank God for the bad results i get, now i realised that my HARD works aren't HARD enough. I pray that i can pass my chinese O. JUST A C6 WILL DO! I wished i could just take higher malay or something. At least i can definitely achieve some grades in my mother tongue then. URGH. Anyway, enough of complaining and whining. hee hee. Sheesh better study now, History paper tomorrow, better get a really good grade for this so that it can pull up my ss. toodlez!

HER STORY
she got to know him through a friend of her
he thought that she was desperate to get to know him
she explained how he got into her msn list by accident
they made friends with each other
she started to talk more often with him
she shares her joy and sorrow with him
she laughs her lungs out to him
she sobs her heart out to him
she's busy
he's busy
they rarely meet
but they're close in relationship
so near yet so far
she feels comfortable when he's around
but he likes another girl
she feels jealous
she doesn't know why
she feels hopeless and helpless
she doesn't understand why
she realises that his happiness is the most important thing
she feels happy for him
she won't give up
because she loves him

YET ANOTHER STORY *lol*
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said... Your not pretty, your beautiful, i dont want to be with you forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die...

enough of STORY
it's time for HISTORY
wth I'm being super lame here. *hee hee* aight! See you all my babes and hunks!

exam exam exam exam exam

2004-05-04T19:34:00.000+08:00

I'm back! for 5 minutes. *hee hee*. I'm having Social Studies exam in two days time, History in three days time. I realised that i've been spending too much time on SS so i decided to study history today. I'm feeling super confused now. Teachers only finished teaching last week and they're practically BOMBARDING us with past years papers. I never say it's bad. But, they're going through the papers within days from the day they gave them out. First, i have no time to do them because i'm busy studyin the exams. Second, i haven't really finished revising EVERYTHING and still need to refer to my textbooks when i do the papers. So, my point is, what's the point of doing these papers, when you're supposed to test how prepared you are, if you're still opening books? *scratch head* hiax, basically i'm just confused. If i feel like doing the papers, i'll do them but i rather concentrate studying for my exams for this week. Anyway, *lol* i think my time is up. HOW SAADDDD?!?!?! I haven't talked to kor for quite some time, miss him a lot. Oh yeah, i've been trying to improve my English by reading newspaper with a dictionary next to me. *grin* ain't easy i tell you. According to Mrs. Low, we should be guessing the meaning of the words we don't know then check the dictionary for the real meaning and compare. HAHA! I got 3 out of 4 wrong. It's okay.......... I'LL DO BETTER NEXT TIME! ayyeeee time's up, shall go now. Take care everyone kae? Don't fall sick! I shan't give good lucks, but instead, God bless you! MWWAAAAHHH *kiss kiss*
KOR : haven't talked to you for some time, take good care of yourself kay? Must study hard and do well aight? mei loves you! *hugggieeezz*

me myself and i

2004-04-30T13:47:00.000+08:00

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
- -__-' there are only two lines on this page......

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
- speaker

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
- few min of 'passion of the Christ'

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
- 1:45 pm?

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
- 1:49 pm

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
- the fan

7: When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
- a few min ago. reading newspaper in the living room

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
- my TAGBOARD!!! cuz no one tags!!! grrrr!!!

9: What are you wearing?
- school blouse and black fbt shorts

10: Did you dream last night?
- erm erm i'm not sure

11: When did you last laugh?
- in school after english exam paper 2

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
- pastel blue and gree paints???

13: Seen anything weird lately?
- myself in the mirror

14(a): What book are you currently reading?
- the little oxford dictionary & thesaurus <-- tat counted?

14(b): What is the last book you finished?
- errrr all textbooks

15: What is the last film you saw?
- passion of the Christ

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
- a new house

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know.
- i tend to lie rather than telling e truth tat's gonna hurt

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
- God makes everything perfect

19: Do you like to dance?
- very much

20: What is the last thing you ate or drank?
- 'top' chocolate bar

21(a): Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
- *grab the Bible*

21(b): Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
- *still flipping through the Bible*

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?
- duh. i don't even know where i'll settle down yet. it can be anywhere =)

ahhhh! i love this quiz. heh heh. had eeengrrrish ercxam torday. yes yes you can guess how i'm going to do for it. geez my english is really terrible. anyway i'm going to take ms yip's advice. from this sentence onwards i'm not going to use short forms and have to use proper english, hopefully this will improve my English. *sigh* Yes, it means i have to use proper punctuation and capital letters as and when it is necessary. *pooo!!!!* As long as i still can use these *action words* i'll be fine. (heehee) I realised something : no one reads my blog. Actually, it's quite cool, in that case i can really shout whatever i want to say, since no one will actually care about it anyway. I don't have to carefully watch what i'm saying anymore! Yay! *bah* My mother is somewhere in Singapore, i think she's in her good friend's house in Bishan. My dad is coming to Singapore later. I don't really know why he's coming but according to my aunt, he's coming just to see the tiny cut i got when i fell down? Oh man! Anyway, i think it's something else. I heard that mom and dad are going to Johor to see some house that they may consider to buy. I wanted to go "WHAT? WWHHATTT FOORR??!?!?!", but i didn't. *yawn* i feel pretty sleepy now, might be taking a short nap. I miss talking to my kor, although it's only been less than a day. Well, i really love chatting with him, he's such a wonderful kor, i have never regretted having him as my 'brother' before. Never. Love you kor! <3<3<3 Okie dokie (hey it's in the dictionary)! Time for a nap! Goodnight everyone! *heh heh* MWWWAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!

late for school!

2004-04-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

tat's it. today's the worst day EVER. first i was late for school. had to stand for one period. STARING at the field. BATHED in the scorching sun. WTH! wat's wrong with the bus system. the very SAME bus can come at as early as 6 45 and as late as 7 05. so what am i supposed to do. when i go at 6 43, the bus comes at 7 05. and when i went at 6 50, i missed it???!?!?!? anyway. shan't blame anymore. ah dont like todayyyy!!!!! tmr wont be any better man. getting back chinese prelim? paper 2 some more? i'm so gonna be in trouble. seriously wat's e point of studyin so hard? some ppl just flip through the book and BAM! flying colours. and me? started in nov last year mugged since march hol, what am i getting? f9. it's so unfair. i'm tired of unfairness. its irritating me. sob sob. enough of tears. gotta worry about english too? look at those wide range of vocabs my classmates hav. how am i ever going to be like them? haiz. enuff. mom coming tmr. i'm happy. i miss her. so much. most of u wont able to know how it feels like. some of u even curse the presence of ur parents nagging. seriously. i'll rather have them nagging at me for my own good rather than being separated from them. life's really different without them. yeap mom n sis will b going to batam, where they'll meet dad there this weekend. yes as u've guessed. i don't get to go. why? exams start this friday. thank God for that. thank God for letting me to see her at least. thank You Lord for teaching me a lesson today. thank You Lord for being patient with me. thank You for everything. Amen.

"Angel"

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here..

it's what i need so.. yeah.. -jan-

love love love love love?!?!?!?!

2004-04-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

i find this amusing. suddenly everyone mentions 'love' in their msn nicknames. weird. kor starts one! haha. i dunno his was first in my msn list with his 'love? wad's love?' so i changed mine to the definition of love in dictionary. and guess what? today there are other 3 ppl in my list with 'love'-s in their nicknames. lol. oh shoot i only got 3 min left. better chiong! haha yes yes i slept at 3 last nite. inspired by my zhi juan. lol she suggested me not to sleep at all. i tried but i gave in at 3 am. lalalala. n i dun get to hav afternoon nap today becuz i went to bras basah to purchase more ten year series, second hand books of course. since i'm gonna write all my answers in da books so mite as well buy cheap ones. heh. oh man exam's so NEAR. oh mom's coming on wed. so yeah mite not b able to study then. shoot. im in trouble! nonono! janice is quite stressed. she's not tat stressed but still quite stressed. heh. at least she still smiles and laughs. lol. alrite kor just made her sad. =( aight gotta go. bye everyone *huggiez*

ENGLISH ORAL PRELIM

2004-04-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

hey i'm back! just for a short while. will not be blogging until the end of mid year exams. maybe i might be naughty a little to come here and scream. well. shall see. heh ah dumb zonkboard said that my account has expired so i got to change to tagboard. they don't have a grafitti (excuse spelling) version! haha but i guess it's ok la. sigh. english oral prelim today. quite difficult. i don't know how i did for it. sigh. should be quite alright. i wanted to scream after it because i left out so MANY important details in the picture! urgh! so pissed with myself. anyway the conversation was quite ...... ms yip is such a nice teacher. i love her. after the oral she talked to me for a short while and she said something that really touched my heart. heh. oh man! alrite going to get some break strolling in town later. and kelly's bday party! yep. okie gtg. love always from me! *muackz*

you won't be mine

2004-04-20T15:59:00.000+08:00

MAD SEASON
I feel stupid - but I know it wonít last for long
Iíve been guessing - I coulda been guessiní wrong
You donít know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down

I feel stupid but itís something that comes and goes
Iíve been changiní - think itís funny how now one knows
We donít talk about - the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around

So why ya gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now
It seems to me - youíd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - Iím lost and Iím hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though Iíve never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

I feel stupid - but I think I been catchiní on
I feel ugly - but I know I still turn you on
You seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down

So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out
You need to be together now - I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - Iím lost and Iím hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though Iíve never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

Now Iím cryiní - isnít that what you want
Iím tryiní to live my life on my own
But I wonít
At times - I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do i, i, I feel stupid
And I came undone
And I came undone

I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - Iím lost and Iím hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though Iíve never spoken

I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - Iím a child and Iím hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though Iíve never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

In this mad season
Thereís been a mad season
Been a mad season

school was fine. had chemistry revision. i realised that my revision has not been enough. sigh. ain't going to sleep. shall practise my chinese oral. might be going dinner over at my aunt's place later. yerp. i'm fine physically. mentally alright. emotionally.... down. better get over soon. then i'll focus just in studies. God please help me. i know only You have the power to control all things that happen around me. oh bring this child of yours in the miraculous work of yours. use her. guide her. take care of her. for Thine is the Kingdom and the Power and the Glory. forever and ever. AMEN.

play play play play play

2004-04-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

back from "shopping" i don't deserve a scolding though i tink i need. first i was supportin e debaters on fri so i couldnt study, n on sat i had sunday sch fellowship until midnight. i din study. and TODAY when i finally can study. my relatives just came oh no. i miss them i want to company them. SO i couldn't help but to bring them arnd town. sis bought sandals. i didn't get myself anythin. oh a white hairband. aight. am so full now. gotta start studyin in 10 min. because i have 2 test tmr! i dont tink i can finish up my hw man. sigh. ACHING all over my legs! ARGH!!!!!!!!! haha anyway i dreamt on my kor last nite. suuucccchhh an impossible dream to come true. heh. oh well. i lurv my kor to bits *hugs* . i'm missing someone too. but i can't say. i just miss you soooo much. you won't understand. sigh. truth hurts. my two beloved don't love me. haha. lol this is lame. okie doc! betta get going now! TOODDDLLEEZZZ *kissssss kissss kissss*

YEEEPPIIEEE YAY!!!!

2004-04-17T13:55:00.000+08:00

ayyyeee woke up from my sleep not long ago. 2.4 was fine did much better than last year. 13 min. i'm sure if i didn't get asthma attack on the last round i would have done much better. my 5th round was 9 smth. oh man i took so long for my last round. irritating. anyway thank you Chew Ting for your inhaler. it saved my life. i really think i should get one. if i remember i'll gettit. yerp. had a good 2 hours sleep. haha going church soon for fellowship. then will be having sunday school class party after that. erm i want to say smth first, to those who read my blog, it'll be nice for you to leave a message on my tag board. =) haha just give me a note. thanks. okie dorkiee. gotta get going soon. still talking to my kor, but yet to receive a reply. akor ah! where are joo. heh i lurv my dan kor alot alor, i lurv my borrzie alot alot, i lurv my buddies alort alort, i lurv my ah pek alot alot, i lurv all my friends alot alot!!!!! you guys are sooo precious to me! *HUGGIEZ* THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME ALWAYS. I'LL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU! have a good weekend everyone. love love love...

long looonnnggg dayyyy

2004-04-16T21:11:00.000+08:00

ello. back to blog again. right now i'm feeling gan kan wan duan. dot dot dot. eh school was fine. we managed to get Ms. Wan to postpone the geog test. which won't be any better as it'll be on monday, same day as chinese test. boo! anyway at least we had extra time to finish up our class deco. yep. i don't know if we can win. well 4/1 did a good job too. just gotta pray.. pray.. had chem prac after school. i tell it's a hard one. all the colours are unusual. not like those we usually get. ooff! i don't know how i did for it man. anyway yep. got a lift to hougang sec school to support e debaters. before that stopped by joyce's house for a drink. and guess what? i left my wallet on her table. "SMART" JANICE! urgh only realised it when i got to the school. luckily i found priya to borrow some coins so that i could go home. debate was ok. we lost to acsi. yep hope we can win 3rd place against winner of RI vs SCGS. bus trip home was especially long. i got a bus sick and almost vomitted. *yawn* right no i need to stuff myself with food. didn't have lunch nor dinner. the last thing i ate was a ham n cheese burger during recess. yerp. aight! take care all! going to have 'fun' running 2.4 tmr and have 'fun' in the sunday school party! yay! cya mmwwwaaaahhhhh........ *KISSES KISSES*

4.8 2004 ROCKS!

2004-04-15T18:32:00.000+08:00

whhhee! just got home from netball finals! well done for both victories of both division! hurray! haha. some girls really have attitude problems. how can you laugh and worse, chit chat during national anthem? what a disgrace! even me as a foreigner pay full attention whenever the national anthem is played. bah! and when we sang the school song. even worse. firstly they started the song SO high haha so we ended up jacking ourselves. BUT there's obviously no reason for girls to LAUGH when they can't reach the extreme high notes. shame on them! lol anywayz. let me rewind the day a little bit. glad that we had gained back our class spirit and enthusiasm. the class was working together in putting up the decoration. and i on behalf of claudia and myself would like to say that we're really proud of you! yay! i'm no longer ashamed to be in 4.8! =D i did some more henna drawings on the wall today. right below the white board. nice nice har har. (thick skin) well of course we're not doing this just for the sake of WINNING but for the fun and 'JOY' (for those who find this sounding familiar yes i'm sure you're thinking about the correct person) ha ha. it doesn't matter if we don't win. yep. lalala. uh oh i'm so SLEEEEPPPPYYY *yawn* got to study for the 3 tests later. after dinner and shower. might not be having dinner today. don't feel like eating. lol. don't scold me ok! i'm broke! can't afford to buy food. oh! i'm SOOOO excited about tmr's debate! i just LOVE watchin debate. it's really fun! yerp! okie dorkie guess i gotta make a move now. *HUGGIEZ* TATAZ!

temptation

2004-04-14T21:32:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!! i'm not supposed to be blogging now but! i'm just sooooo tempted to. haha. geez. been SO busy all these while and going to be SO busy the whole week! baaah! firstly i was soooo glad that Mr. Tan actually scolded the class on behalf on me. phew. i mean i don't have the right to scold e class so yep he's my hero! yack yack.. NOT. haha. lalallaa. oh oh oh! i'm drawing the henna patterns on e mahjong paper for e deco. yawn finished 4 out of 6. 2 more to go. and then gotta seriously do my history presentation for tmr. oh no! CLAUDIA i need to ask you smth! shoot! then i have to do my a maths at the same time study for 3 chapters test on friday. oh man got 3 tests on friday i'm so not going to survive. sob sob. some more got to support the netball team on FINALS tmr. how? i have to study one today. take a maths. and after that will attempt to practise english oral and do one essay for the oral. and if i have time i'll do e maths hw so tmr can concentrate just on the tests. ahhh!!! how am i ever going to get to sleep tonight??? and what i'm doing now? bloggin! marvellous! hahahaha! i want to fill up my blog what. otherwise so empty. heh heh. ok ok better ciao now. tmr if i can i'll slip 5 min to blog again yay! take care everybody. MUST ok? heh heh don't bother bout me i'm fine! i'm used to it! yay! *huggiez n kisses* MWAH! toodlez!

VICTORY!!!!!!!

2004-04-13T19:15:00.000+08:00

oh finally i finish my blog. bleargh. battled for hours man. my precious sleeping time! grrr. oh well at least it didn't turn out to bad. wanted to upload at pitas.com but apparently i had a lot of difficulties handling pitas. so came back to blogger. yep yep. hope you guys like this new template. i just don't have time to update so much. busy with studies. yep. as for now i really got to buck up and do my studies. so i'll blog again prob in the weekend. lots of love from me!